A lot of people may not like this, but it's really time I got this off my chest...
First, I just want to take the time to say a very big thank you to those who have been so supportive & have kept me going during my competition training. It is NOT easy! Training is mentally & physically exhausting; especially working full time, try to do freelance work if I have any & trying to keep a social life. I try to keep in contact as much as I can & I’m sorry I don’t get to hangout much. I think this is one of the most difficult things I've ever done, but it makes me happy. I can go to the gym so tired & soar; I leave feeling like a champ! Because I know I'm doing something good for my body & trying my best to keep myself healthy.
With that said, what has made it even harder are a few I considered to be close to me that have not been so supportive. I always try to support others decisions as much as I can (even if I don't fully agree), it's just sad I can't get the same respect in return. I can no longer concentrate on it because it's really distracting me towards my goal. I've fucked up most of my training (That I started back in September) because of it! But I'm the one to blame for that because I should have just gotten over it months ago, but it kept sticking with me. Time to let it go.
I’m not trying to sound selfish, but I'm doing this for ME. This is something I have dreamed of for the past two years, that I never thought was possible till I finally decided to step out of my comfort zone & just do it! I don’t expect anyone to understand or full accept what I’m doing. I just don’t need the negativity. I constantly do things to challenge myself, it's how I've always been.
I've never quit anything in my life & I don’t plan on starting now.
Thank you
