Big Anouncment

Randomly throwing it into a post a few day's ago I figured I would take the time to officially say that as of October 1st, I will begin my six month training program with AZ Pro Physiques to prepare for my first NPC show this Spring! Yes, I'm finally doing it after talking about it for a year.

Fitness & sports have held a huge spot in my heart for years. I'm a flat out tom boy who can't sit still. Working out, whether its weight training or cardio makes me happy. It's my release. I leave the gym & I'm in the best mood the rest of the night. I'm sure people think I'm crazy for how much I work out, but I love it & I'm not going to give up or be a slacker to something I love.

When I started eating clean & got in real good shape last November I came across a lot of competitors that became my fitspiration. Woman like Erin Stern, Jamie Eason, Kim Dolan Leto, Felicia Romero, Melissa Hall Larsen. These woman are so strong, healthy & had such inspiring stories on why they started competing. Soon after I started to get the itch & dreamed of hitting the stage one day. I figured why not give it a try.

Then I started dragging my feet for six months... & got a little out of shape.

But the thought never left my mind. After getting in contact with an NPC competitor & the support from a few close friends I decided to just go for it already! Make my dream a reality! Next day I contacted AZ Pro Physiques & signed up for their online training program. NJ is very limited on professional coaches for competition & If I wanted to do this right, I need to work with the best. After signing up I knew right then, there will be no turning back from this point. I'm going to do this!

I want to thank all my friends & family that have shown me such positive support & love; Tea, Kelly, Sho Sho, Brosephie, Mr. Leone, Miss Jen, Dad, Grandma & Grandpa T. Thank you so much for believing in me! I'm going to need all the positive reinforcement I can get, because from what I hear the road to competing can get rough & lonely. & I'm happy to know I have such amazing support along the way.

Competing is a huge commitment (especially financially) & is going to take a lot of time & discipline on my part. But no one can do this for me, I'm doing this myself & for me. GO BIG OR GO HOME!

Body Composition! These are my starting stats that I had done Tuesday night to send to my trainer :) Parker said my BMR is awesome for how small i am. ‘You're like a humming bird!’ & 68lb of muscle! My morning weight is 113lb. But I'll go with the 118lb

I'm excited to start this journey & so happy to share it with all of you!


Current track: No Doubt- It's My Life

                               

Quick bit

What a busy day! PtW 5th Annual Golf Outing today &it's my fourth year volunteering at it. Getting a day to spend with co-workers, clients & being a part of such a great event always makes me feel so good. In working with PtW I've seen the organization grow so much & hope to continue to see it grow even larger in the future!

Volunteering is something I hold dear to my heart, I love being able to give back. My joy for volunteering started back in High School when I became a member of Key Club & by Senior year I was Vice President. Doing little things like baking cookies for Samaritan Inn or making little stuffed bears for a Children's Hospital. No matter what projects we had organized it always brought joy to my heart knowing no matter how small the act, I could possibly bring a smile to someones face & make their day. It's the most rewarding feeling to me. I live to help others.

After I graduated I made a promise to at least volunteer once a year (with college, studies & work I wasn't sure how much time I would actually have). I painted apartments for Samaritan Inn, donate my old clothes every year to my Grandma's church, & would find little thing to keep me active in volunteering.

I had a great opportunity come along when I received my internship from PtW. I knew right away this was an organization I wanted to be involved with & spread the word about. & almost four years later, I'm still delighted to be apart of it.
                               

It's finally coming together

All the pieces are finally falling into place, one by one. I'm so excited to share that I will be starting my training with AZ Pro Physique!  It's taken almost a year of dreaming of competing & I'm finally going in the right direction! FINALLY!

The woman I've been in contact with has recommended I wait to do my first show in Spring so I'm in tip top shape. She's the professional so I'm going to do what ever she tells me. She's going to be like my yoda :)

Today was a pretty productive day; food shopping, logo design for a friends bagel & deli business (they loved it & picked one already!), bachlorette party bookings, finished my application & sent my before photos for AZ Pro... &...

Guess what I brought back in my life today... Food Prep Sunday Baby! It's kind of disturbing how much I missed it. But it just makes me happy when I do, I don't question it.

Shhh... my parents are on vacation so I used their kitchen to food prep today :) I mutilated the turkey all by myself!

 

Those "friends" you have

Time to talk about true friends & those "friends." I have had a lot of this in my life, everyone has at one point or another. Having so many people come in & out of my life through out the years (had this happen with two individuals quite recently); some have been with me for five / ten plus years, some were only there for five months. You learn everyday by others actions & words of what they truly think of you.

At first you may not realize it or you choose to ignore it because you on the other hand value the friendship & don't want to see it disappear. But I say it's the same with a relationship; If the effort is only one sided... don't expect it to work. It will eventually fall apart. It's all about give & take.

You know, those "friends" that only turn to you when they need something or have no one else to turn to, knowing you're dependable & will never turn them away. Those "friends" who when you need them in return, they are no where to be found. Those "friends" that will turn their back on you for the most ridiculous reasons. Also love the "fake" nice friends; you can tell inside they are gritting their teeth while trying to be nice.

Yeah... those friends... ARE A WASTE OF YOUR TIME! Because clearly they have shown you were a waste of their's. People grow apart & grow up; it's life. Yes it may hurt, but it will be alright & you will move on. I believe that certain people come into your life as a lesson, learn from it!

Surround yourself with the right people that lift you up, bring out the best in you & that make you shine! That show you they value your friendship just as much as you do! The second your having a bad day, you automatically reach out to the right people. Your brain knows who you can trust & so does your heart. Even if it's someone you haven't talked to for a few months, I bet they will answer as you would for them.

I know personally I should try harder to reach out, but we all get caught up in life. But I know the second I'm having a bad day or I need to talk, I know deep down who I can turn to.

I'm so grateful to have so many wonderful people in my life. The support & love I have from everyone, I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

All I hope is to be the best for them as well.

Current track: Kanye, Jay-Z & Big Sean- Clique

Sometimes the road gets tough

Those tough moments; you can either let them defeat you or use them to make you stronger!

Try to make a long story short I hit a huge block, again. You know what, shit happens! I'm not perfect & I don't want to be. Lost sight of all the progress & hard work I had been doing for myself. Was it worth it? Yes but more of a no. Was it my fault? Absolutely. I have no reason to place blame on anyone. I'm also not going to sit there, cry & dwell on it. NO! It's not what I do. I'll pick myself up, brush myself off, cover up my wounds (with duct tape because it fixes everything) & move on. I've built myself up before from an extremely low point in my life almost a year ago & I'll do it again! I'm more determined then ever & I won't let distractions get in my way.

You need to stay true to yourself. Never give up! Never stop believing! Everyone has the power in them to take control, make positive changes for yourself  & in your life. NOTE: Your attitude can make it or break it. Also, don't expect it to happen over night! Toss your negativity, negative influences, negative individuals etc. because all they will do is turn you into someone you're not really a fan of (like what happened to me for four months).

Make it happen!